Back to Life|Poetry Breakdown

And it’s that time again! Here’s poetry breakdown for this week.

Back to Life

In the depths of my heart,
resides a monster.
A monster who is a savage.
A monster who is a thief.
A monster who only wishes evil doing.
A monster who grows larger.
In the depths of my heart,
resides Fear
and it is the feast for the monster.
Together, they build.
Together, they destroy.
This cage around my heart, soul and mind is
constricting.
I feel so brittle.
I feel so fragile.
I feel like an explosive.

Yet with my anxiety,
I will hone it into a sword
and break free from my cage
and bring my heart, soul and mind
back to life once more.

 

This is a poem I wrote after I had a series of anxiety attacks and I needed something to motivate me since I was feeling quite down afterwards. My format of the poem is basically two stanzas. The first stanza is a description of what I think my anxiety is and the second stanza is basically my motivational speech for myself. It’s my mantra whenever I feel anxious.

The first stanza is filled with parallelisms starting with the line “In the depths of my heart resides…”,which I use to highlight what anxiety can personify as to end up being mainly as fear. I capitalize fear since it becomes like a being-something that can move around and cause a person so much pain.

The lines, “A monster who…”, I use to build up more depth to the severity of the crimes anxiety does against me. And the lines, “Together, they…” and “I feel so…” are lines to build up what I am becoming and what the anxiety is doing to me.

There’s a big gap between the first stanza and the second stanza and that’s to make everything clear. The second stanza is pretty self explanatory. I start with the word yet which is basically me saying “Hold up! I’m not finished here!” The line, “I will hone it into a sword.” means that I am going to train myself to use my anxiety as a weapon to free myself from my burdens I have caused with whatever it takes just so I can live a better and not restricting, like a cage, life again.

Please excuse my run-on sentence in the last paragraph and thank you for reading this week’s poetry breakdown. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to do next week’s since I’ll be moving into college at that time and I’ll be getting situated with everything. So, wish me luck!

Alice

I See You|Poetry Breakdown

Hello once again! I hope your day has been well and I hope you enjoy this week’s Poetry breakdown!

I wrote this poem for the 30/30 Challenge on April 20, 2014. The prompt for that poem was alone with everybody.

I See You

I see you
on the outskirts of everybody
with one foot gingerly inside
and the other firmly holding your place.
I see you
looking up on the occasion
whenever the laughter roars a little louder
or when silence draws near.
I see you
inching closer to pull back.
I see you.
I understand how it’s like to be alone with everybody.
How we dance back and forth with the crowd and lights
swaying like a meaningful tempest.
Come be alone with everybody with me
so we won’t sink
either way.

I really like this poem that I wrote because I feel like I really captured what it’s like to look around and see someone outside of the group. At least how I feel on both sides of the spectrum.

This poem is actually inspired by one of my friends. I always see my friend on the outside of the group and I never like it when people are left out. This poem is also how I feel at times too.

I start the poem with a longing to be accepted as well as a fear of what to expect hence the feet in different places. To me, the feet really the soul of a person because it takes the person places.

Every single sentence after the parallel I see you are basically longing feelings as well as unexpected fear. I parallel I see you as a reminder that I do see and it basically means I understand.  At the end of the I see yous, I blatantly say “I understand how it’s like to be alone with everybody.” I can imagine someone with their hands around someone’s face  saying that after that someone denied their understanding. The words alone with everybody really invokes a feeling of wanting to not be left out anymore and wanting to become a part of the group, but having difficulties so you’re left watching.

Now, I use the pronoun, we with the line “How we dance back and forth with the crowd and lights swaying like a meaningful tempest.” as proof that I do understand. Meaningful tempest… If you read my previous Poetry Breakdown, I wrote about a storm and how at the end of the storm, there would be clear skies which are more appreciated because of the storm. That’s what being lonely before joining in is like- a meaningful storm.

I continue the illustration of a tempest on the last sentence of the poem and throw in the prompt once more with my personal concern for the person- to not be caught up with being too alone or to be overwhelmed by the intensity of the group can get at times. To just be in a happy medium.

Essentially, this poem is about being yourself again. You don’t have to fit in with the popular kids or resign to the corner. Just be yourself.

 

And that is the finale of this week’s poetry breakdown. I’ll see you next week with the next poem!

 

Alice